The day I have long fought against has come. I SWORE that my girls would not have weight issues. That my girls wouldn't know about the scale. That my girls would focus on being healthy and knowing that it's what is on the inside that counts. WRONG. This weekend Carlie refused a cookie at House Church "because she was on a diet." what??? Never, ever, never have I mentioned to Carlie that she should be on a diet, but when I talked with her about this, she wanted to "be like mommy, and be skinny." I cried. I literally cried at what my actions has taught my daughter. I should know that she listens to every word I say. I should know she always wants to be just like mommy. And yes, I have been trying very diligently to remove the holiday pounds. I rejoined Weight Watchers. No, I am not starving myself - but I am struggling to watch what I eat. I really dislike this part about me - my weight obsession, and now it looks like I may be passing it down to my girls. Time to take back the control.
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